Au Revoir Baba
And so I dragged myself out of mourning today... exactly a month it's been since Baba breathed his last! Mourning, in some ways, is pretty notional as just about everything carries on undisturbed and continues unchallenged for those who live on. It has been the same for me. It's in the intangibles! I found myself mourning when I just couldn't get myself to change my profile picture on fb till tonight, I found myself cringe at the thought of attending a dinner (that I just returned from) at a friends' that my husband committed to - at the prospect of socializing again; I think I'm mourning when, even after a month, I feel loathe to touch base with friends; and there are some feelings that are so intangible that coherent expression will be an effort just now! So i refrain! What lies beyond mourning? Memories - good & bad, sweet & bitter, family memories & of moments only between Baba & me. The shared and the loud ones will be re-lived, discussed & ...