Why give it any name !!

I wrote this on the 5th of June, just didn’t manage to give it much shape… still half baked but what the hell…

Why give it a name… it’s life

It’s been a day full of nuances; germinated somewhere in the chats I’ve had since last evening and this morning. Somehow HAD to source out the two-pin to plug in the Bose and blast the Metro soundtrack.

Several thoughts running criss-cross, parallel, contradicting, confirming, affirming; all at the same time. Life, all of a sudden, has offered a unique scale to grade whether I’ve lived a life; fully yet; with its doses of purity, love, hope, hopelessness, despair, optimism, hypocrisy, forgiveness, anger & Déjà vu’s and I’m raring to see how I’ve fared across life’s parameters…Momentary lapses that most of us will find traces of ‘been there’, ‘felt that way’, ‘ah, that feeling’ and resonance

The sequence of the ‘lapses’ follows the sequence of the tracks in the album and not necessarily that of life…

In dino dil mera, Mujhse hai keh raha
Tu khwab saja, Tu Jee Le Zara
Hai tujhe bhi ijazat, karle tu bhi mohabbat…

…Main aapni tanhayi ke vaste ab kuch toh karu.

Jab mile thodi phursat, khudse kar le mohabbat,
Hai tujhe bhi ijazat, karle tu bhi mohabbat…

Some random thoughts occur:
Have I just lived a life or have I loved myself fully, amply, unconditionally, non – judgmentally, unregretful despite the odd decisions that gave momentary pain & pangs of pleasure, cut short.
Get a resounding YES. Am chuffed.

And it creeps up without a single whisper or a tingle to the spine

Chupke se kahin dhime pao se,
Jaane kis tarah kis gharih,

Aage badh gaye hamse rahon mein,
Par tum to abhi the yaheen

Kuch bhi na suna, kabka tha gila
Kaise kah diya…Alvida.

Alvida alvida meri raahein alvida, meri saanse kehti hai alvida
Alvida alvida aab kahna aur kya, jab tu ne keh diya alvida.

It comes back again.
Once again feeling naughty, understood, desired, all at once, all of a sudden…
Irrepressibly…

Dil Khudgarz hai,
Phisla hai yeh,
Phir haath se
Kal uska raha,
Ab hai tera is raat se…
Oh meri jaan

Tu aa gaya yu nazar mein,
Jaise subah dopahar mein
Madhoshi jaisi chhayi
Niyaat neh li angdayi

…Nadaan samjhe kahaa yeh dil mera
Janu na janu na isko kya hua
Meri, bahon ki phir se dhoonde
Yeh panah
Tu hai kahan… Oh meri jaan

And the acknowledgement, which chases till that point… for a nod, a hug

Batein kuch ankahi si, kuch ansuni si, hone lagi
Kabu dil pe raha na, hasti hamari khone lagi
Shayad yahi hai pyaar