Said my 7-year old to me this morning!
We've had this pristine ritual. A ritual we more or less
formalized—of a big crush hug from him to me and me to him, right after shower,
him cuddled in his bath towel, dewy and warm, smelling like the little baby
that I cuddled first time 7-years back. This ritual, right before I help him
into his school uniform, has been a mainstay of the short 30 minutes before he
hops on to the school bus, off for 8 hours in the day.
The
last couple of months we'd kind of detracted from this unsaid contract.
And
today, in a moment of the old, in a moment devoid of any imagined mishaps and
misses, in a moment of just being with him, it all came back. He hugged me, the
boy-child, allowing the child in him to say as he felt.
A
more recent understanding of the ‘thousand with the three zeroes’ versus ‘the
hundred with the two’. It was a visible split-second choice he made of the
number highest in his understanding, of saying how he acutely felt (and perhaps
has been missing) in that moment.
He
made a conscious choice this morning. He was an inspiration. An inspiration that
makes me want to shake off the hurry, the unconscious roughness of the morning
routine, of my voice in a higher decibel, of the imagined ‘hurry-burry’ of a
morning to catch the bus.
How
surreal—the anxiety of missing the bus leads to Missing The Bus of Life—of
spontaneous hugs, of heart-warming smiles and sloppy, gooey spontaneity.
I
love sloppy, and I am going to be so as a Mom, henceforth.
That
brings me to how conveniently I can pin-me-down to this newfound desire to commit, being the time of the year it is!
My
Top 16 Sloppy-Mommy resolutions for 2015:
1.
Hug him, crush him, give him the best hug memories of his life.
2.
Don’t watch the clock, watch his abandon!
3.
Go on a giggle-chase, be silly.
4.
Play with him in the rain (and in the Sun, with sunscreen on!)
5.
Break the rules together, once in awhile and often.
6.
Join him to color outside the lines.
7.
Create surprises, unplanned wonders, curious encounters.
8.
Follow His heart.
9.
Lose control willingly.
10.Search together for
better questions (quell the impulse to answer)
11.Teach him feelings.
12.Go where his mind
takes me and become lazy to come back.
13.Teach him ‘the random’.
14.Make the bed together,
or better just let the bed be, for a day!
15.Remember how really unique
he is!
16.Really be there, with
him! (being there 'for' him is
J
